Sunday, January 13, 2008

Just Because

I really don't have anything of merit to write about these days. It's been a tough new year so far. A friend of mine lost his father, to whom he was very close. My husband got into an accident with our truck - he's fine, but the truck's not - and my husband got the ticket instead of the guy who hit him. So not only do we have to dish out the deductible, we have to pay the fine too, AND our insurance will go up.

I took a major insult on the chin at a party last night - won't bother explaining what it was because frankly it's too long to go into. But needless to say, someone who I've totally been there for did something that insulted and snubbed me in front of our friends. And I'm pissed as all hell about it today.

AND, I'm totally stagnant when it comes to anything creative these days. I have no desire to write anything, unless I'm at work, and then it's a matter of no time to really think it through. And when I jot the points down, by the time I get around to looking at it, I forget the connectivity, and it doesn't make sense.

In short, life isn't going well.

That's not to say I'm not grateful for everything - I know it could be far worse. I have two jobs, friends that love me, a family I adore, and I'm relatively healthy - more or less. I haven't lost anyone in the last two years that I've been very close to (knock wood) and I have a roof over my head, food on my table, and the opportunity to improve my life every day.

It's a lot more than most people have.

So, while I am grateful, I'd just like to stew in self pity for a while.

Stay sane inside insanity ~ and never forget your towel.


Dayle A. Dermatis said...


Bond said...

ah crap... no pity parties...

Whatever the insult... F-em...

Those that heard it who are true friends will blow it off and those that take it to heart are not real friends...


Travis said...

Sometimes we get in the doldrums and it's ok.

Dana said...

Aw, sounds like you're having a crappy time of it. Hugs, prayers, kisses, and good Taylor vibes are coming your way!

Anonymous said...

Hi, Angell! I noticed on your profile you like Styx. They're my favorite band! If you'd like to, stop by my blog (which I just started), and check out my profile. Oh, and BTW, lots of love and smooches!

I lost my niece back in September, my step-nephew died back last summer, and my brother and his family live in Korea (hopefully they'll be home in the next year or two...) God, this is a blog in itself, lol!

Talk to you later, I hope!

~ C

angell said...

DAYLE: Thanks for the hugs babe - back at ya. Miss you and Heaux security.

BOND: Ya I know...but it still irked me to no end. He's apologized tho..SMOOCHES to you hon.

TRAV: Yah, I know. Trouble is I'm down in the dolldrums so often, there's a welcome mat and I'm getting junk mail.

DANA: Luv you honey - and did you say Taylor was coming my way? OH wait, Taylor vibes - well those are good too.

CIANA: Thanks for stopping by and I'm so sorry that 2007 was so bad for you -here's a giant wish from me to you that 2008 is better for all. And I will gladly stop by your blog. On my way....(giggle)

Anonymous said...

It's all right, you're allowed to wallow, you wouldn't be normal if you didn't! Lots of hugs to you, girlfriend! Go get some Ben and Jerry's, they keep me company when I get down in the dumps! ;)


With love and pride