For Sue - and Dee - with love and peace...

Oh we never know where life will take us
I know it's just a ride on the wheel
And we never know when death will shake us
And we wonder how it will feel

So goodbye my friend
I know I'll never see you again
But the time together through all the years
Will take away these tears
It's okay now
Goodbye my friend

I've seen a lot things that make me crazy
And I guess I held on to you
We could've run away and left well maybe
But it wasn't time and we both knew

So goodbye my friend
I know I'll never see you again
But the love you gave me through all the years
Will take away these tears
I'm okay now
Goodbye my friend

Life's so fragile and love's so pure
We can't hold on but we try
We watch how quickly it disappears
And we never know why

But I'm okay now
Goodbye my friend
You can go now
Goodbye my friend

©1988 Seagrape Music (EMI)


Stay sane inside insanity ~ and never forget your towel.

And I guess it's not the end of the world...

Well, it looks like stupid mistakes will turn around and bite you in the ass.

Ladies and gents, if you've ever been in trouble with the law, TAKE CARE OF IT. Something I did fifteen years ago is now preventing me from renewing my security license and keeping me out of a job I love. Until, that is, I get a pardon.

Which, from all my research, takes TWO YEARS.

I've spent five years in this company. I've worked my way from being (what we call) a pylon, to one of the most trusted guards on any call. And now I have to wait two years for a mistake to be removed from my record. There's no appeal process, no review board. Nothing that I can do except bend over and take it.

Because I've HAD my license for five years. I've passed background checks to work a casino strike. I've worked in the school board. Not once have I ever had an issue with renewing. And suddenly, the laws change (apparently two years in the works and all security companies were kept abreast of the process) and I'm out of a job. As are several good guards, who's crimes were so petty, and yet ....

SIGH.

So now I take a step backwards (and a pay cut) and become an USHER? Been there, done that, and there's a reason I'm still not doing it. Security guards don't get a lot of respect from the general public, but ushers get even less. I've done a damn good job to earn that respect.

See the problem is (besides what's listed above) there's a dividing line in the company. Reds (guards) and blues (ushers). Like sticks to like....

I'm so depressed - I know there are worse things going on in the world, and even in the lives of people I care about. But right now, I want to be a little selfish and dwell on my own stupidity. I know dwelling doesn't help, but until I can talk to my lawyer and see if it's possible to fast track this process (according to the person I spoke to at the pardons office, there's no way of it happening but I want a few opinions on this), all I can do is be depressed.

*grabs woobie, bottle and tv remote and heads to the couch*

I'm gonna hibernate with Senor Cuervo for a bit.....

Stay sane inside insanity ~ and never forget your towel.

Free Style Fridays: Just One Night (new poem)

Just one night
to be held by you
to know the touch
the smell
of your skin.

Just one night
to hear you
whisper my name;
to hear how it
falls in cascades
from your lips.

Just one night
to memorize
the incandescent lustre
of your smile,
of your eyes.

Just one night
to dance alone
with you,
to music only
we can hear.

Just one night
to decide
to live again.

©Angell 2007

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